So, today started out like any other morning...the kids and the dog getting me up way before I am ready..(even though we had to be up early!) Then trying to rush around, get the wood stoves going, get the kids juice & breakfast, and make my coffee!( before I get too cranky!)try to get Jonathan dressed and fed before my sister- in- law picks him up for preschool and for some reason he HATES eating breakfast! So I have to fight with him EVERY morning to eat ( especially morning he has preschool! i am not looking forward to next year! haha!) So somewhere in the midst of all the my husband arrives home from work...chats with me and the kids for a few minutes and then heads off to bed...in our brief chat he told me that his job might be laying off 4 people...he has no idea who...but sometimes jobs lay off the " last to be hired" people " ( or so i am told) ..and if thats the case my husband is in that category...I just stopped what I was doing and looked at him like " you are joking, right?" ....A few days ago, I was just marvelling in the fact that he has a job in this tough economictime...and here I am back on the rollercoaster feeling of self- employment , which is " will my husband have work next week".... so i had to put it out of my mind for awhile..since I had to finish getting Jonathan ready for school. And then my two year old has decided that this week she wants to start potty training! I am shocked, because honestly she is doing great! I just hate "wasting" all this time working with her on it if in a week or so she gives up and wants no part of it..she is still young, but she seems so much more advanced for her age ( or more than her brother was at this age!)..So after Jonathan left, and between the million trips to the bathroom with Zoe...I started feeling bummed...I mean what will we do..what if he does get laid-off...he loves his job! He hopes to stay there for awhile! Why God, why? Then I remind myself, yet again, that God is in control and I need to trust Him...so I go through my morning kind of feeling bummed about things..I thought I know I will bake something! I have been wanting to make these health apple turnover things and as I start baking I realize I had picked up the wrong kind of pastry crust! So even thought the apples tasted great the crust had no flavor! haha! ( when I make them the right way I will post the recipe, since they are really good when made right! ) so that kind of bummed me out more. I love cooking and baking! But i hate failing at it!well, I honestly hate failing at anything!..and after my husband woke up I was able to take a walk.. I love walking on the ridge where I live.There isn't a day that passes that I dont look out my window or go for a walk and I am just amazed at the beauty God has created! You would think that after living here almost 27 years that I would be bored with the view and that it would all be the same after that long! But, no! God's creations are perfect, and beautiful! So as I am walking up a hill on the road ( they dont plow part of our road in the winter ) where only a few brave cars had dared travel through the snow, I get to the top of the hill and look around and I have to stop. The beauty of the hills and valleys, and blueberry fields covered in snow take my breath away! God makes no mistakes! He washes our sins away ,white as snow! And I am once again blown away at how awesome God is! I know that I dont get a chance to read my Bible as often as I should and would like..and I dont get the prayer time that I like.I find myself praying throughout the day about different little things.. .( my kids dont really nap and are basically wherever I am , and i have NO silence ever! I can't even think half the time!) but I know that looking at the snow, that God's plan is MUCH bigger than mine..and that He will bring us through anything..like He already has! We have been through much more difficult times...losing jobs, losing grandparents, losing friends, our son who has had several medical problems in his short life...and so much more! Like the Casting Crowns song says " I will Praise You in this Storm!"